It was a painful week that sometimes I felt I should not enter into. It was a week that I should be somewhere overseas now celebrating and enjoy the joy together with someone, but alas, here I am at home writing this passage.
I have booked a ticket on a cruise ship. It was meant to be a voyage of holiday and joy. But alas, due to my forgetfulness, I didn't brought along my passport. Next I found the visa missing. Then I quarreled with the immigration staff. Despite these hurdles, all the people has been generous to me. They allow me through despite all my deficiencies. At the last hurdle, again I quarreled, with the ticketing staff this time. Alas, the boat has blasted its horn for the last call. I failed badly, missing the point totally. Perhaps my ears are deaf, perhaps my mouth say he is more important than the ears and keep on arguing. Perhaps there is no perhaps.
When I reached the jetty, I found an empty berth. I have just missed the cruise ship. That was the last call for the cruise ship, for the cruise ship is sailing out for it joyful voyage and will forget you soon after leaving you behind. The cruise ship has sailed and will no longer turn back. This day is important, because it is the cruise ship 22nd anniversary, an important milestone after become an independent cruise ship after the 21st anniversary. In my heart, I know the boat is gone, but the memory of the boat, the size, the shape, her beauty and beautiful moments embedded vividly inside my heart.
But I do remember someone telling me this "I believe that the process is more important than the results". I cannot but agree. I have learned a great lesson on humility. I have learned that I have been sitting on my ideas for too long. They don't hatch like chicken. They are not chicken. Time to act!
Also, the same someone wrote "So before asking what others could provide us, why not we think and ask ourselves what could we provide or give others?" So now I am listening (at last). I am going to book my ticket on another voyage. Right now I am still negotiating the price of that ticket. No, I am not missing the whole picture by hagging over a small part of the whole voyage. The price of the ticket is important to my Mission statement. Everything I do now, I ask myself the 4 underlying guiding mission statements.
There is no more holiday cruise ship. It is gone and in its place is the industrial ship. I am going on it to work and learn the process as taught by someone. I know objections are aplenty. There are too many people who have always see you for the past 33 years. They have stayed too comfortable with you. Time to ask them to let me go on my journey. Again, I am using that someone idea in that "This is my life, I’m the only one who was able to grade it. As I decide for the reason why I live for, even if I did mistakes, I live with it and I’m the one who bear the consequences of it."
I longer say "I will succeed" and sit on it. Thing do not move for you just as the Sun does not move from east to west of Earth. I was dreaming as I failed to see the whole truth. It is the Earth that is moving around the Sun. I need to re-look at the bigger picture carefully again. What I am seeing with my eyes are the only jigsaws that I only know. But I can learn other jigsaws from others. Complete the whole jigsaw puzzle to see the whole picture. Therefore, there is only one way. I have to make the things move. I have lost confident! But as I booked the ticket on the next journey, I commit myself to try whatever means to reach my destination. In that, there can be no failure and there is only one possibility - "I MUST SUCCEED!"
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