Motivation can also be as Devastating

"Failure is the opportunity to begin again more intelligently." - Henry Ford

Well, Mr Ford, you created mankind's first car, it is easy for you to say that. Very hard for layman like me to pick up the pieces and move on. Life is never the same again as before. Yes, I have learned, but I failed to forget (and perhaps forgive too).

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"The only people who get on in this world are the people who get up and look for the circumstances they want, and, if they can't find them, make them." - George Bernard Shaw

I certainly am no maker of creation, what magic can I conjure? So I failed and I readily admitted it.

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"You cannot always control circumstances, but you can control your thoughts." - Charles E. Popplestone

Oh mine, that's easy for you to say, but rather hard for me to do it. The circumstances are beyond my control, without a doubt. My thoughts are not always controlled by my brain and that is the problem.... Sometimes, the heart takes over and rash and impulse actions take place and/or my thoughts sank me into deeper myst.

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"Believing in your own ideas, abilities, and decision-making is the first step to achieving success in life." - Dr. Wayne W. Dyer

There is a song called "I believe I can fly" and once I believed in it. So I flew and soared in the sky! And I lost my soul in the process. But as I have had crash-landed now, I regained back my soul, but lost the confidence. So what should I seek now? A question that I have been pondering deeply too. No answer of course!

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"If you don't know where you are going, you will probably end up somewhere else." - Mark Twain

That is perhaps the root issue that I need to address immediately. Where am I heading to now, there are too many "ifs" at this moment. No matter the years that I have had for training during my competitive days in playing deep-thinking moves in chess or weiqi, I just couldn't figure a solution past the web of entanglement compounded by these "ifs" now. Or perhaps as the current music is suggesting, my heart is sunk and my brain is dead.